Day 2 after exams

Today is the second day after my exams.During the exam time,I realized how little I knew my subjects and I felt real bad about myself.The only option left for me was to take the resolution to prepare well at least for the next set of exams.
"Even if you do these exams badly it is okay,we'll seize the next chance" I told myself.
I decided to buy the text books for the next semester right after the exams and start studying hard the next day itself.I'm a very good planner,I chalk out ideal timetables(ideal becuase I don't allot any time for sleep) before every exam,even when I know that there is zero chance of me following them.
I was happy when I knew that we had ten days before our next posting started.That meant a lot of time to study,maybe I'll revise Anatomy as well,I thought.So,when I was back home after my last exam,I told Amma,"From today on I'm going to study hard,Amma".She looked at me in surprise,The girl had just finished her exams now and now she is going to study??!!
I put on a very serious expression,"I need money to buy the books for next sem.I am starting to study them from tomorrow"
"That is good,Natasha.Finally you have decided what is good for you.So,How much do you want?"
"Ten,thousand!you know medicine books are quite expensive."
"Okay,get them tomorrow itself,not having books shouldn't keep you away from studies."
I felt happy.Everything is going smoothly,I felt.A voice inside me asked "Do you think you would be doing all these?"I ignored the dubious mind.
I'd heard somewhere that if you share your future plans with someone you'll get more oriented and so I decided to tell amma my target for the next ten days.
"Amma,I'll revise my first year portions these ten days.My anatomy is very weak,you know!I'll prepare for my Kerala entrance as well.That way,maybe I'll get through them at least the in the second attempt"
It worked!!!Even the short talk got me charged.
"Maybe,I'll get the books today after papa comes.That way I can start studying tomorrow morning itself".
"Do whatever you want"Amma was getting bored with my flight of ideas.
I decided to watch a movie,just to freshen up before starting the study escapade.I'd ten CDs that Salil sir brought the other day.I decided to watch 'Taxi Driver',a movie I'd been longing to watch for a long time.I loved it,but by the time the movie was over I was exhausted.I couldn't get the books that day because I was asleep long before papa came.
Now two days are over,I've bought the books,allof them-Davidson,Harrison,Bailey,but have not yet opened them.
"Are you not going to study??"Amma will ask me,when she sees me wasting my time as a couch potato.
"Why,Amma!!it is vacation."
Hope I start studying atleast tomorrow.